Finally Passed

For a few weeks 12/9/2011 meant a lot of changes. Then came May 12 when I had an appointment with the doctor. As Vannah would say, "There was no heart beep." I am not sad, I am actually happy. I would have loved another little baby but the timing was not right. I think Josh had a harder time than I did about having a miscarriage. The baby didn't survive past 8 weeks. I was given my options. I decided my body is made to clean itself out so I would wait. I waited 3 weeks from being told the fetus was not alive to miscarry. I was told what to expect. What I was told was nothing like what happened! I would never change my decision to have a miscarriage naturally. I do hope to never go through that again. It was not fun! It started as unusual spotting on my birthday, Wednesday. (Great birthday treat, right?) It finally came yesterday morning. Two words - PAINFUL and GROSS! I hope you never have to go through that! The only time I cried was through the pain yesterday. Glad it is over! Cheers!